drama.

within the family?! NOT crackin. 

its tampered with my heart these past few days..

but its okay i know we can make it through. 

my immediate family is STRONG.

and will help the extended family get through it.

your silence..

.. is SCREAMING loud.

my dear friend.. i just wanted to let it be known that i am here to listen to you. i understand you are going through a difficult situation. you try so hard to put on a front as if you are living life without any problems. i am aware that you try and act like nothing is wrong so that we do not have a depressed feeling as we are all gathered together. but the fact that you sit there in silence.. we know the REAL you.. we know how you act.. we know something is wrong. just know we care and that when you are ready to vent we are all going to be here waiting.. with ears ready to listen.. and shoulders ready to be cried on. we love you. no matter the situation we think nothing negative about you and will always be on your side. 

you know who you are.. so no name is necessary to be written out. :]

thank you!

so celebrating the deuce deuce was good times. 

first it was friday night and it started with the house warming and that led into my surprise birthday. haha it was good. i love them folks! thanks for those who came. hmmmm.. then later that night we ran into a mishap.. but well we'll work that out.

saturday morning i woke up to mom and dad singing happy birthday and we had a nice breakfast :] i spent the afternoon with mom and then headed to church. after church i headed down to the boys house. finished getting ready and when we were finished we headed to excalibur. met everyone at dicks then enjoyed dinner. it wasnt that bad of an experience.. great company.. funny ass things going on.. i was betrayed by the WHOLE table and had a lap dance by some man with a tattoo that says "TACO" on his belly. hahah after dinner we headed to jet and ran into a snag.. all good tho.. revolution was the place that was next on our list and THANK GOODNESS that we went there!! it was a good time.. great music.. great people.. idk.. haah i was DRUNK! drink after drink.. somehow they appeared and then when the drink was gone.. a NEW drink appeared in its place. hahah. fun fun. so many memories.. or well.. lack of them.. but thank goodness for pictures. hah 

well i start a new semester tomorrow... or in a few hours.. so i guess its time to sleep. goodnight world.

OH! and thank you all for the phone calls.. comments.. texts.. and company on my birthday! 

insomnia.

it gets the best of me.