photo booth with cousins.

so shortly after i posted my bLog... kayla walks in the room and we just start to take pictures.. hahaha well heres a few.. enjoy.. 

to check out the rest go to my myspace. [www.myspace.com/beddarcheddar]

LOVE em all.

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this is my cousin NEEEEEEEEECOLE!!!! we call her TEE TEE because she has a big one! :]  haha okay now.. on with the bLogggggggging.  :]

so i havent actually had a chance to do an ACTUAL bLog. ehh.. i always tend to push if off.. idk just been occupied.?

well christmas went well. its always good to see my lovely family. as much as i sit and complain to them.. i really do love them.. and i have one of the best families out there.. really! well anyway.. hm.. currently im sitting here on my brother's couch. hah. cousin nikk and i are just bummin it.. occupying space infront of the computer screens.. yes multiple screens! :] no sharing! haha sorry im stingy.

so yea.. hm.. i had a bit of aggravation in my life. i DO NOT do relationships. simply for the fact that guys just get my head hot.. they just ughh!! idk. well yeaa.. idk theres just a person that started to make me upset. idk.. just making stupid remarks.. as if im suppose to feel bad for them.. wtf.. realize.. i care for myself. my own happiness. not that i dont care about others.. but PITTY others?? no thanks!

oh another note.. i read a bLog that lifeline wrote.. about project 365. sounds dope im down! haha. i know itll take me a bit to actually try and remember.. but you know what.. imma do it. bLog?? myspace?? haven't yet figured where itll be placed.. but if you're forreal curious.. itll be posted somewhere :] 2009 im ready for you! ;]

i love love love them all. HOM roomies. thanks so much. i had just about the BEST year of my life with you guys. taking me in. showing me love. just everything. THANK YOU! i cant get enough. yall are always checking up on me. making sure im ok. and still including me on things.. even when you haven't heard from me. love them all. :] lets go 2009. make it good. focus a lil bit more?? hah but still the family love!

frustration.

i know its been a while since i blogged.. and yes a lot has happened.. but honestly.. i just dont want to update on all of that right now.. because its been so long..

anyways..

i know i dont have it hard. not in the least. but what a futchin' way to start out christmas eve! why does she always have to start out by bitching at me?! wtf. my phone was charging.. the dog tripped the cord so my phone fell... and im the one that got bitched at.. uh.. i guess im not allowed to charge my phone and put it on my bed. damn.. my bad! just so much. wtf.. because she wanna try to do laundry.. and leave it in the wash for a few days.. i gotta get bitched at?! damn.. my bad! guess its all my bad. cant wait.. TWO YEARS!! a lil less than that actually.. then its my own place.. my own life.. everything on my own. no more bitchin. im going to be in CALI son! thats right!! find me there this time in two years. haha seems like forever.. but honestly. its not going to be that bad im sure!

ok i better get back to my "let me bitch so you can do shit" things that the lady has me doing.

bLog out! hah

MSL.

so its almost 3.30am.. just got off the phone with the HUSBY! ughh.. mad laughs yo. its too much talking to him. he puts mad smiles on my face. makes my stomach hurt and tears roll down my face by how much he makes me laugh. its always a good time with him. 

He granted me with a new name. so HI my name's martha! haha check yo locks bitches! "who's your husband? oh thats right it dont matter because he's talking to me." apparently i wreck homes without doing any such crime. I have these married men coming after me as if we were in a relationship. they approach me. they talk to me. they TRY and get with me. and i have no kind of interest in them.. yet i got people's MOMS callin' me hella early in the morning asking who im talking to.. and why im talking to them.. and if i know they are married. wtf?! its damn 7am! no i dont know they're married and honestly i dont care because its not like im getting with them! wtf. UGH anyway. 

Let me get on the subject of the title of this bLog entry. MSL. who takes ESL when they're born in the states.. know how to speak english.. but the only reason is because they're not crab crackin' when it comes to mathematics? haha yepp thats my husby! haha its sad but true.. so its FUNNY! hah he got me dyin on that shit all day. "MONEY TALKS BUT IT DOESNT TALK TO ME!" goodness. i love it. "thats why i never charge for me to teach class. just get me out there, dont pay me ill do it for free. i just want nothing to do with the number part" haha thats so classic yo. honestly if there was a way for me to record our phone conversations and upload them for others to hear.. if they understood where we were coming from.. everyone would be dying laughing. its pure comedy but its all true. "thats right. im back.. and im talking mad shit! about myself!" hahah wtf. only rictor would do that shit. 

OOOh. and i learned that husby bLogs. haha ughh son thats wassup. 3 bLogs?! dengg sorry yo. sports.. games.. and dirictor?! good to know.. good to know.. well after not really sleeping last night.. i guess its time for sweet sleep <3 

i just had to share the mad laughs i had while conversing with the husby. OH!! and realization check.. there's 15 days til christmas.. i haven't even started shopping yet either! i have no clue on what to get the parentals.. or the brother.. and i still have to get my secret santa's gift.. the the CLOSE FRIENDS yepp select few.. fackkkk.. well its nothing major this year folks.. small somethings will have to suffice.. love love love. goodnight.

MARTHA is out!

M.O. <3's M.S.L. we work together yo!

lion fell in love with a lamb

i was so lazy today! gahh.. woke up early.. ran hella errands. lowe's, home depot, wal-mart, in-n-out, came home.. chilled started to study.. did some homework. didnt want to go out partying so i went to the movies with daffi and emi. good times. i love my friends. yepp! :] im blessed.

first day

hah so i finally started back at school yesterday. im officially an APOLLO COLLEGE student. yessir! its good. everyone's been asking how it was.. well.. its just like the first day at any other place. different! hah but all in all GOOD. there's lots of work to be done.. and a lot of slacking that i could be doing.. but no.. i need to get my ass in gear and do my essays.. my homework assignments.. my best! no sluffin' for me. thanks.

good night gone bad

so.. first the creepy carpenter at my house! wtf. ughh.. thats a story only few know. anyway... went to studio 702 to watch the formLV boys preview their set for prelude :] oh boys.. how much you've grown. i enjoy them so! it was good to see hifiLV meccamee and streetlitez come out and support. i love seeing their faces :] hm.. then we went to the gymnastics studio.. and watched the boys practice.. hah fun stuff there. came home.. then realized i forgot some shit at 702. so i had to drive back.. gahh.. then on the way home.. FLAT TIRE!! wtf. loser.  stupid benz. ANYWAY.. to make matters worst.. my phone battery was dying!! gahhh.. thanks to EMMANUEL BANEZ for coming out to the ghetto and helping me! :] i love that guy and owe him big time. hah finally made it home and ready to SLEEP! i have my first day of school tomorrow. boo!! starts at 8 am! ughh son.. jackie's doing work :] 

post this.

so its been dengg forever that i've been on here. boo to me sluffin!

1. hm.. well tuesday i had orientation. fun fun. honestly i can't wait until school starts. im ready to get my head on straight and further my education so i can start my CAREER! yessir.. career not a job! ughh son. 

2. wednesday i went to the boys' game at the YMCA as usual. the boys always seem to give up.. but daffi and i were there to cheer them on. haha i love it when she joins me at the games.. its always more laughs. "PLENTY OF TIME BOYS!! PLENTY OF TIME!!" girl.. there was like.. 3 minutes.. and we were behind uh... 20+ points?! all good. i just enjoy seeing the boys. then daffi went out with the girls to blue martini. ughh son! first timer. fun fun. on the way home we went to mc donald's to grab a bite before we headed home.. and goodness.. that wait was longer than the drive home! i was dying laughing.. daffi was there yellin' her head off.. just bitchin.. but it was hilarious.

3. thursday was thanksgiving! it was good. heart warming and everything! i really enjoyed it. i woke up super early and headed to HOM so we could head to church. we were suppose to go to eat breakfast but that wasn't crackin'.. so mass was at 9:30am. good deng stuff.. idk it was REALLY touching. donna cried.. i teared.. felt good. we sat next to the barba family :] then we headed to a home in anthem to deliver a thanksgiving lunch/dinner. :] that family was cutesies. then i headed home for a bit.. got ready picked up some family and headed to brother's house. we cooked dinner!! yee! just the kids.. it was good stuff. fun fun. then others came over and we watched movies hung out.. chilled.

4. friday i stayed home.. no black friday shopping for me. i went to Faith's 21'st NEW YORK birthday celebration. :] it was suppose to be a surprise.. but hahaha faith's mom told her. so yeaaa.. it was good to see everyone. ESPECIALLY jayMAZING! ughh BF!! 

5. saturday was *GROOVE. Slim from Supreme Soul came out to teach. then we went to TAO for Jay's being in town :] we went there clubbed it up. fun fun fun times.. two bottles.. thanks jay!! :] 

6. sunday was my day to chill. sleep in late. spent some time with my brother. did a bit of arts and crafts.. ahha and then played rock band :]

7. today! i woke up at brothers house.. helped out a bit.. got the cars cleaned :] and now im at home. have to get ready for family night. but yeaa.. mmmkay.. time to go. 

OH WAIT!! one thing.. you know when you go to wal-mart and you get to the cash register.. the little screen where you slide your credit cards and junkk at.. well idk if you've ever noticed.. but there is a question there.. its usually like "was your store clean today?" or "did your cashier greet you?" or "was your cashier friendly?" or whatever it says.. well you're suppose to answer them right?? its your choice.. do it or not.. whatever.. well sometimes i answer it.. usually positive.. sometimes if its negative.. i dont answer it.. idk.. but what pissed me off today.. is that the cashier didnt fuckin' greet me.. didnt even say ANYTHING to me... just rang my shit up.. and told me how much i owed.. (i only bought 4 things.. and it was all the same stuff) so right when she rang it up.. she pushed the "YES" button on the survey shit.. WTF!! bitch.. i didnt even get to finish reading the question.. instead of being a major bitch.. i just shook my head and laughed.. that dumb bitch.. but it really did make me upset.. idk. okay.. just wanted to vent that. okay im done :] bye!